Life as I can remember ^^

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To begin with, I would like everyone to keep in mind that I am happy with my life. Even though the start of this, my biography, is a little sad, it gets better every line. I want to thanks my parents who raised me like an open mind person. Thank my brother that was always there, standing for me. Thank to the friends that were true friends to me. And to all of those who once gave me a word of inspiration. Those who hurt me, because they made me stronger. And, of course, thanks to God that gave me the life. I’m making my best effort to do this as it happened, but I can’t remember a lot of things…

My name is Giuseppe , and I was born in Maracay, Venezuela. It’s something curious, because I was supposed to be born on January the 25^th and instead, sooner than expected, was born in January the 22^nd. And furthermore, no one could drive a car by law that day, and despite this, my father went to the hospital by car and thanks God nothing happened to him. The doctor said that I didn’t have to be in the incubator, but anyway, they left me there. I came to live in Peru when I was two years old.

My big brother, Giorgio , and I never had any kind of serious problems. I was a little fat when I was a baby, but when I grew up and came to have six years old, I became extremely thin. >>Thin<<>

And so, I started to suffer a lot. Perhaps because my brother was not thin while I was, and that made a big difference at the start. I was always the problem in the restaurants. I was the one who wouldn’t eat almost any food at all. I was the reason why mom had some problems with dad sometimes. Anyway, I was sad enough, I cried almost everyday. Yes, I can say I couldn’t have the most happy of all infancies, but still, the days that I was happy were very beautiful.

When I got into school, I changed. I was much happier, always playing around, and even one day, I threw up my pencil case to the ceiling and I got expulsed from the class. I will never forget that day, it was so much fun. But still, almost everyday, when I got home, I had problems with dad because of my weight.

And I even had asthma. Sometimes I had one of these attacks in which you can’t even breathe. Yeah, and that days I had to be carried in emergency to a clinic far away from home. But every second I could, I always smiled.

And I began to grow up. When I was nine, I started practicing swimming and left it some months after. Then, when I was eleven, I got into another swimming classes and theatre classes. I still can remember the look of my father’s face, when I told him I didn’t want to practice swimming. He just looked at me with a very angry face and yelled at me “NO ONE ASKED YOU IF YOU WANTED OR NOT TO BE IN SWIMMING CLASSES” And I was like… I want to run away from home, from the whole world…

After a while, in six grade of primary, my teacher send a letter to my parents in order to talk to them about my behaviour. I was, that day, so afraid, that I was thinking crazy ideas to evade this. Then I realized that I was afraid of my parents. That day I knew what was to feel… TruE FeaR

But thanks God, he made all of this for a master plan. I finally stopped having asthma attacks and everything; I got cured by his hands. And not only that, I started to weight more and more, and nowadays I love doing a lot of exercise, even though sometimes dad and mom won’t let me do so. They are some great, careful parents, and made all of this for love. They obviously knew that I could handle the pain.

And when I was fourteen, the biggest problems started. Dad and mom, fighting almost everyday, sleeping in different rooms. One day of that summer (the summer I will never forget) I got home and found the wedding picture broken on the floor. I started to cry, desperately, didn’t know what to do. I just wanted… someone to be there for me, I couldn’t take it anymore, and as mom and dad wouldn’t divorce (and I don’t know why they were like that) there would be days in which I would explode.

And then it started. My dreams, my inspiration, everything CEASED TO EXIST for a long while. How could I have had any kind of dream if I had so many problems at home. And even one day, when I tried to solve them, I ended up making them worse and I started to feel like the worst garbage in the world. No Smile. Couldn’t smile anymore. And there were some friends that wouldn’t take it serious, and it hurt even more. I started giving up to God. I stopped to believe in Him for some days. But, despite everything, he send me an angel.

And so on, this friend helped me out of all this problems, because we both had almost the same problems. I started to smile again, to be more confident, and to make a big effort as I did before. Then I started lifting weights, I wanted to be stronger, to protect my friends. But my friend wouldn’t believe too much in God. But I knew it was His grace what saved me from the problems at home. And so on, I helped my friend to believe in God and we both grew up spiritually.

After some months, the problems finally ended. From one day to the next one, dad and mom started to be more friends and everything. At the start, I was upset, because, after hurting me and my brother, after all that sorrow, they simply acted as if nothing had happened. But then I realized that it was the best that could’ve happened.

>>Fifteen years<< Yes, I remember every part of that year. I had my second girlfriend, but she was starting to teach me bad things, such as drinking and other crazy stuff. So I decided to break up with her, and so I did. This pointed the start of an age full of confusion for me. A month and a half had passed, and a girl, one year older than me, wanted to be my girlfriend. We started to date and we liked each other a lot, and after a while, we were a couple already. I got myself into so many activities in school that I got stressed and, because of a misunderstanding, broke up with her, my third girlfriend.

Anyway, after a short period of time, the girl that had been my first girlfriend started talking to me. She wanted me a lot, and I wanted her a little. But, because of what she had done to me some years before, I decided to test her. If she waited two months to me, I would be her boyfriend. And she waited, and so I asked her to be my girlfriend once again. Many days with her were very confusing. Sad, talking about sorrow. I couldn’t stand anymore to it, because I felt as if she was dragging me into a dark past I wanted to let go. And that’s why I broke up with her, three days after being sixteen years old. And finally, everything was clear, it wasn’t my time to be in stuff like that, and that’s why I decided to be alone for a long time.

I couldn’t forgive myself for what I did to the world. I hurt many people why sinking in my sorrow. I made people cry, I broke hearts, I lie and even more things. But Someone gave me a chance to start over again. Someone gave me a new life. A new opportunity. That person is God. The key to free my soul. The key to everything was and is God. Thanks Him, I could finally… smile again, I finally…

>>Let go off my past<<

Nowadays, I’m sixteen years old, I don’t have a girlfriend and I am, almost all the day, full of different activities. That’s the way I love to be. I have many dreams, one of them is to know a special girl and to be with her always, I want to travel for a whole year all over the world with her. I hope that, that day comes. My other dream is to study a master in Harvard. The next dream is to be the best fighter in the whole world, I want to surpass Bruce Lee, the only fighter that never got defeated by anyone.

I have practiced many sports in my life. Starting from swimming, running, basketball, a little of football, handball, marathon, Judo, Karate, rowing, boxing, tennis and some more. I know it, >>Everyday I learn more about my life.<<

The other day I realized how sensible I am. I wanted to know this girl that came from a far place. And then, when we started to talk, I wanted to know more about her, she seemed like a very interesting person. I thought we were alike, because of our believes and everything, but I was wrong. I liked her a lot, she was very nice to me at the start and I was that until the very end. But after all, she ended, and when it’s about love, there are times that you must give up.

The other day, my Christian education teacher made me three questions. The first one was… What do I believe about life? And luckily, I have my answer. I believe that life’s a miracle, God’s gift to the human being. Life is the most precious thing in the world and it’s a gift you must enjoy everyday. Life is indescribably beautiful. One day you’re happy, the next one you may cry, then you can stand again and face the whole world. A complex thing, full of feelings, emotions, relations and more.

The other question was… What am I to do with my life? And once again, I have my very own answer. I want to be someone big, acknowledge by the whole world. I will be the strongest fighter in earth, I will travel all around the world, I will learn more about life and about my career. I will be a civil engineer, one of the greatest of all history.

And the last question was the hardest one to answer. Who am I living my life with? I can say, I would love to meet this special person who would travel with me anywhere, but I still Don’t know if that day will ever come. But I have Faith That it will.

I think I have a serious problem. It’s my memory, it fails me almost everyday. Right now, I can remember a promise I made to myself yesterday night. It’s a little frustrating sometimes, because it’s as if you hadn’t lived that day. The good part of this is that, as I forget a lot of things, when I live them again, it’s as if it were the first time I live them. And that’s why I always say that I feel this quote:

>> A scattered dream that’s like a far of memory, a far of memory that is like a scattered dream. I want to line the pieces up. Yours and Mine<<.

Don’t like fights, don’t like fighting, and don’t like discussions. I hate when people challenge me, because they won’t let me in peace until I face them. And after when I do, I feel terribly sad for the damage I may have done them. I always give the best out of me in almost everything I do. I hate bad words. I want to make this world shine once again.

I’m a very happy guy. I love knowing special people, and sometimes, get excited way too fast. I think I found the kid inside of me and that’s what, in a certain way, makes me special. I hate bad words and that stuff, I want to clean the world from that. I discovered that, to change the world, you must change yourself for good. I always say, NEVER, NEVER, NEVER GIVE UP, I trust everyone, we all can accomplish our dreams. After all, we are God’s creation and He is a master that will never fail us. I have broken many promises, but one day I decided to start a whole new life and that’s what I did. Now I’m very happy, praising God, going to school, working in order to achieve my dreams and everything. In abdominal exercises, I can make 200 without stopping. The other day I did a total of 800. In push ups, I do 70 x 4 with only one foot on the floor. I want to make it far and leave my trace in the world. I want everyone to know that…

Giuseppe Once Existed…